hi. i love you.

i’m spoiled.

ok here’s life:

randy’s coming over tonight.

church and work and probably seeing randy again tomorrow.

beach with my family for four days.

work again for a bit

new jersey to see some of the most amazing people on earth.

SO FUCKING EXCITED. 

it’s gonna be a baller ass week

i’m a little irritated with myself right now.

i know that eating food that is good for me always makes me feel better physically and emotionally, and eating food that is bad for me almost always does the opposite. so why the fuck did i just eat a handful of pepperoni?

seriously. i need to chill the fuck out and make a serious change. i’ve been gaining weight all summer and i’m pissed about it. if i keep this up into the fall, it’s going to be disgusting and i will be so thoroughly angry with myself that it’s probably just going to spiral. so now is the changing point. 

fuck this, fuck doing things that are terrible for me. i need to chill the fuck out. i need to sleep more and eat healthier and keep going to the gym. 

obviously easier said than done. but i’ve done it before and i can do it now. it just takes willpower. which I DO HAVE. contrary to my own belief for years.

okay. starting now. bedtime. goodnight.

AND

literally the only two things to cure pms